I don’t know if this happens with everyone or if it is just me but I find it so hard to give up the small things. You know things like the TV or the Phone or something that seems so insignificant? But what seems insignificant to me is most of the time very significant to God.
During my vacations, I started reading a lot of books and I mean a LOT! I finished one book in a day and took up another one the next day. Naturally, God was not my priority at that time. And because of that I had such a hard time fighting off temptation. And a day came where I was so frustrated because of all the failure that I got down on my knees and cried. I had no words, only groans! And that’s when God told me that I have to give up reading. And this how the conversation went:
God: “Baby, you need to stop reading……”
Me: “Oh! Okay, I can cut down my reading time and finish a book in two day. I am okay with that.”
God: “No, I want you to stop reading. Stop. Don’t touch any book other than the Bible. Don’t even read any biblical books.”
Me: “But what will I do all day! Are you sure this is what you want?”
And yeah well, its safe to say I didn’t listen to Him. But that didn’t mean that every time I picked up a book I wasn’t reminded that I am not supposed to be reading. And after the frustrations of a few weeks I finally gave up and did what He asked me to do. And the good news is that today I am allowed to read but in moderation and now I never find myself wanting to read an entire book at once.
But that is not what this post is about. It is about giving up a T.V. program. Small isn’t it? as in SMALL? And you know what, that is what makes it even difficult. That smallness. Oh, trust me I want to give it up because that will make Him happy. But there is a part of me that doesn’t want to give that small pleasure up either. And come to thin of it, God told me to let go of it when I gave this “IT” more importance that THE God! It started as a very innocent thing. I was bored one afternoon and thought let’s go check what fans have to say about this sitcom. And then I was hooked! From the moment I wake up till the time I sleep I thought about it. And it made me feel pathetic!
I am still having a fight about it. About the small thing. And honestly? I don’t know what to do. Have you ever been through this? Do you know what I can do?